• General

  • Reflections

  • Projects

  • Mundane

  • Foundation

  • Current

  • Future

  • Dr. Kuyashii-ito

    The rejection from Dr. Keck adds to this feeling, the growing chip on my shoulder…. of people not giving a shit, not caring… I more or less resolved that socially (or so i’d like to think) but now this feeling, of inadequecy…. an inkling of Kuyashii.

    The odds of me getting the OIST internship are slim….
    The odds of me getting a place for medicine are slim….
    The odds of me getting into Humboldt M&B are slim.

    It’s time for me to make myself the person that can push. A forceful person, who decides and does.

    This is the consequence of passivity and mindless self indulgence.

    NOW TO BE MINDFUL
    NOW TO BE POWERFUL
    NOW TO BECOME UNDENIABLE

  • Re-integrating

    After the Transience, after the freedom, I now have the opportunity to “Dig In” to what I want over the next two weeks. As well as to kick off my opportunities in medicine….

    Let’s maintain the benefits, and progress. Determination, and feel the chip on the shoulder. BE UNDENIABLE.

    The conflict comes from the question of whether I’m at the right age for this. Am I denying myself? Deberia estar gozando?

    I think the clear answer is to follow my feelings, and intuition, without allowing myself to become mired in guilt - the path cannot lead to a state of suffering, nor should it pass through one.

  • SFE

  • Nationality Application

  • Housing

  • Finances

  • Research/Neuro Stuff

  • Name ideas

    Urquidi - birch forest idea
    dr. kuyashii
    goma and sio
    salt n sesame

    • Speculative

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BUPA at least?\n[X] full birth certificate\n[ ] Interview\n"},{"_id":"76df214f0e973b1037000037","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12604120,"position":1,"parentId":"76df21af0e973b1037000036","content":"https://www.gov.uk/government/uploads/system/uploads/attachment_data/file/374613/TreatyRightsGuidance.pdf\n"},{"_id":"72825b257fa9165d6900003b","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":14429039,"position":3,"parentId":"76ee48130e973b1037000034","content":"## Housing\n\n[ ] Property guardianship schemes\n - too quick! get back to them in September\n[ ] Boat and rental"},{"_id":"728258107fa9165d6900003c","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":14429065,"position":4,"parentId":"76ee48130e973b1037000034","content":"## Finances\n\n[ ] Request tax return for previous years! URGENT\n[ ] Tax return for 2018\n[ ] Report taxes from self-employment (Gastronaut and UKBreweryTours)"},{"_id":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12448867,"position":0.5,"parentId":"77e87e2d2737a5895f00002f","content":"Foundation"},{"_id":"77707cc4322dc9c6d1000033","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12475437,"position":0.5,"parentId":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","content":"# Physiology with Tradition\n\n- https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4012361/\n- The Translational Framework of Ayurveda as a Knowledge System https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5382818/"},{"_id":"77a73a8c322dc9c6d100002b","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12740125,"position":1,"parentId":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","content":"Meditation\n\nSpiritual Scientists\n- Susan Blackmore\n- Sam Harris"},{"_id":"77a73a6a322dc9c6d100002c","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12740126,"position":2,"parentId":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","content":"Psychedelics\n\nR. C. Harris from Imperial\n"},{"_id":"77a73a1f322dc9c6d100002d","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12448872,"position":3,"parentId":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","content":"Mental Health"},{"_id":"77a739fd322dc9c6d100002e","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12448873,"position":4,"parentId":"77a73aa8322dc9c6d100002a","content":"Writing"},{"_id":"77e87e0b2737a5895f000030","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12414987,"position":1,"parentId":"77e87e2d2737a5895f00002f","content":"Current"},{"_id":"77e8698a2737a5895f000033","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375816,"position":1,"parentId":"77e87e0b2737a5895f000030","content":"Self-Training\n - Practical\n - Coding\n - Machine Learning\n - https://enlight.nyc/ml.html\n - Data Analysis/Stats\n - Use to support application for cognitive neuro research positions\n - Summer courses\n - e.g. university of copenhagen\n - blockchain tech http://kurser.ku.dk/course/ndak17002u/2017-2018\n\n - Investigate\n - Ayurveda/translation\n - Cognitive Neuro\n - Philosophy of Buddhism\n - Psychology/Phil of Mind\n - Neuro of meditation\n - Seclusion\n - Workaway\n - WOOF\n - Helpx\n - Housesit (potentially unlikely)\n"},{"_id":"728271437fa9165d69000039","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375837,"position":1.5,"parentId":"77e87e0b2737a5895f000030","content":"## Medicine"},{"_id":"77e82c0c6d9b2135c6000028","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375835,"position":2,"parentId":"77e87e0b2737a5895f000030","content":"## Extension\n\n- Research\n [X] Stephen Hunt\n [X] Sarah-Jayne Blakemore\n [ ] NEUROSEC https://www.psych.ox.ac.uk/study/graduate-studies/examples-of-post-graduate-research-degree-projects-for-october-2013-entry\n\n- Volunteering\n - SANE\n - SOFAR\n\n\n\n\n"},{"_id":"77a73c94322dc9c6d1000029","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12454859,"position":1,"parentId":"77e82c0c6d9b2135c6000028","content":"## Speculative\n[ ] Headspace\n[ ] 10% Happier\n[ ] Message Wellcome to explore Ayurveda/Phys Wellbeing research"},{"_id":"77e87dea2737a5895f000031","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":12414988,"position":2,"parentId":"77e87e2d2737a5895f00002f","content":"Future\n"},{"_id":"7282741e7fa9165d69000038","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375826,"position":0.5,"parentId":"77e87dea2737a5895f000031","content":"Research/Neuro Stuff"},{"_id":"77e87dcb2737a5895f000032","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375828,"position":1,"parentId":"7282741e7fa9165d69000038","content":"Medicine\n[x] Barts, Kings and Southampton\n\n\nCASE\n\n\nMasters\n- Humboldt (May)\n - http://www.mind-and-brain.de/master/admission/\n- UCL Mind and Brain\n - https://www.ucl.ac.uk/prospective-students/graduate/taught/degrees/brain-mind-sciences-msc\n- Other Berlin Neuro masters\n - https://www.medical-neurosciences.de/en/metas/baustelle/\n - http://www.fu-berlin.de/en/studium/studienangebot/master/social_cognitive_affective_neuroscience/index.html (App April 15 to May 31)\n- Paris/France?\n- COMPUTATIONAL PSYCH\n - MRC-Birkbeck Studentship (1/3/18 deadline) computational psych https://www.ucl.ac.uk/mrc-dtp/prospective-students/case-studentships/case-using-computational-modelling-understand-effects-pharmacological-manipulations-cognitive-function/\n- Funding\n - Scholarships and funding?\n - https://www.ucl.ac.uk/prospective-students/scholarships/graduate/UK-EU-Master/malcolm-grant\n - https://www.ucl.ac.uk/prospective-students/scholarships/graduate/UK-EU-Master/thomas-witherden-batt\n - Wellness/Mental health entities\n - Erasmus+ Loans\n\nWork\n- Communications and writing\n- Neuro\n "},{"_id":"76d7822b0e973b1037000039","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375896,"position":2,"parentId":null,"content":"## Reflections\n"},{"_id":"728239947fa9165d6900003d","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":13375899,"position":1,"parentId":"76d7822b0e973b1037000039","content":"## Dr. Kuyashii-ito\n\nThe rejection from Dr. Keck adds to this feeling, the growing chip on my shoulder.... of people not giving a shit, not caring... I more or less resolved that socially (or so i'd like to think) but now this feeling, of inadequecy.... an inkling of Kuyashii. \n\nThe odds of me getting the OIST internship are slim.... \nThe odds of me getting a place for medicine are slim.... \nThe odds of me getting into Humboldt M&B are slim.\n\nIt's time for me to make myself the person that can push. A forceful person, who decides and does. \n\nThis is the consequence of passivity and mindless self indulgence.\n\nNOW TO BE MINDFUL\nNOW TO BE POWERFUL\nNOW TO BECOME UNDENIABLE"},{"_id":"6e3f0e312fad90a54b00003f","treeId":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","seq":14428360,"position":2,"parentId":"76d7822b0e973b1037000039","content":"## Re-integrating\n\nAfter the Transience, after the freedom, I now have the opportunity to \"Dig In\" to what I want over the next two weeks. As well as to kick off my opportunities in medicine....\n\nLet's maintain the benefits, and progress. Determination, and feel the chip on the shoulder. BE UNDENIABLE.\n\nThe conflict comes from the question of whether I'm at the right age for this. Am I denying myself? Deberia estar gozando?\n\nI think the clear answer is to follow my feelings, and intuition, without allowing myself to become mired in guilt - the path cannot lead to a state of suffering, nor should it pass through one."}],"tree":{"_id":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257","name":"Life Formation","publicUrl":"7a39e04b3a5004c223000257"}}