• ADHDalek’s Blog

    I feeeeel things.
    And it hurts.
    Now what?

  • On the Right to Push for Your Own Success

    What is it about my head anyways?

    I just finished up talking to some peers, trying tp pitch an idea for a new project, one which I am totally justified in asking for. It’s a normal thing. It is.

    Yet here I am, lying in a lump in my (home) office feeling like a silly, fake, lying, fool who doesn’t deserve to even be doing what I’m doing. I feel ridiculous.

    Why?

    I didn’t even do anything wrong.
    I could have been more prepared.
    I didn’t have all the answers, but that’s not abnormal.
    I kind of chickened out and let the more senior person give advice on the best approach, which is why I wanted him there in the first place. But then he did and I felt like a fool.

    Why?
    I know, but I don’t know.

    Does that make sense?

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