I feeeeel things.
And it hurts.
What is it about my head anyways?
I just finished up talking to some peers, trying tp pitch an idea for a new project, one which I am totally justified in asking for. It’s a normal thing. It is.
Yet here I am, lying in a lump in my (home) office feeling like a silly, fake, lying, fool who doesn’t deserve to even be doing what I’m doing. I feel ridiculous.
I didn’t even do anything wrong.
I could have been more prepared.
I didn’t have all the answers, but that’s not abnormal.
I kind of chickened out and let the more senior person give advice on the best approach, which is why I wanted him there in the first place. But then he did and I felt like a fool.
I know, but I don’t know.
Does that make sense?